Where I'm at

Sadly, I've been neglectful of my blog these past few months. I have been exhausted to the point of no return. Not that I have anything to tire me out...a busy 5 year old who shocks and amazes me with her intellegence then turns around and can't find the head on her shoulders...a newly three year old who thinks he can do everything by himself and has so much energy that I simply cannot keep up...during the day another 2 year old who is a tiny copycat of Ben (good and bad) and can be slow as molassass and sweet as it too. And then there's Thumper. I want to go into some sort of hyperstatic hibernation (is that even a thing? I don't know, I made it up) until I give birth I'm that tired. I know I won't get any more sleep once he comes, but at least the toll on my body won't be as great.

My brain seems to be turned off. I live in an approximate 3 foot radius of my head. If it's not happening right in front of me, I don't care. I don't remember. I have everything for the next month written down in about 6 different places. I still can't keep up.

On that note, I am looking forward to Christmas. Since I used to work in retail where Christmas Music and items start after Halloween, I have a very easy time begin jaded about the whole time of year. I am very careful not to do anything Christmas-y until after Thanksgiving. Then I ease into it. A few songs here and there, then I can break out the classics.

One of the first "events" of the year is usually Ryan's company party. This year my challenge was to find a dress that actually fit. Hmm...almost 6 months pregnant...maternity is either ugly or expensive...regular stuff won't work...what to do?? I had one dress at home, but it very summery, and one I was lent, but it wasn't quite right. I am happy to say I did find a dress, about $100 less than I expected :) Let the (alcohol free) party begin!

It's a boy!

Ups and downs

If you read back a while, all I wanted was to be pregnant. Now that I'm here (18 weeks), I sure am rethinking this whole thing. This pregnancy has kicked my butt. Even when I do sleep, I never feel refreshed and my napping hours have increased exponentially. And these aren't nice, comfy bed naps, but sit down for a minute to catch my breath (which I'm ALWAYS out of) and pass out for a while kind of naps. I have felt six months pregnant for about 3 months, and I'm not even to six months yet! My hips hurt, my bones ache, my hair is falling out when it should be staying in...
And then I feel the little bugger kick me. I have not felt this one as strongly and frequently as the other two, and I had a semi-freak out because of it, but I am always waiting for the next one. I can't wait to hold s/he in my arms and smell it's warm head (most likely no hair, I've got baldies). I know this is the last one, so it has a bittersweet finality to it. This time in my life that I've looked forward to from the beginning is over?? I will be happy to move to the next chapter of raising them up (partially started already, of course)But it's all moving so quickly. Hey, on the bright side, maybe I'll be an empty-nester by 50!!